Thursday, September 29, 2011

Purveyin' an existence...

I like to use the word "purveyor".  Even if I don't say it aloud, I'm surely thinkin' it :)  By trying to live consciously, mindfully - I like to think to some degree that I am the "purveyor of my existence."  To me, this mostly means that I am keenly aware of my free-will (make no mistake, I know the giver of that & thank Him everyday) and the freedoms, responsibility and challenges in that.  Moreover, I'm owning the day - not letting life just happen :)

So, I laughed when I read freedictionary.com's 1st meaning of purveyor:

1. One that furnishes provisions, especially food.

Ha, that "especially" at the end - a large part of all my purveyin', especially of late :)  Ran a marathon kitchen this past weekend that left me a lil' tired & a lil' grumpy.  Meals for the week were made & lots of stocking was done in the freezers.  Knowing we'll be gone 2 weekends in a row this coming month, unheard of.  Trying to "prepare" to be w.out our cherished weekends to regroup.  

Speakin' of preparing - lots of this going on in anticipation of Ella's 1st birthday.  Found a "loose ends" check list the other day of all the other planning I was doing this time last year (sigh).  So, being on this side of things, just a little beyond excited at celebrating this past year w.our sweet Ella Bella.  Working on 1st year keepsakes/momentos for her to have one day when she's older.  I want her to know how excited we were to celebrate the gift of her presence in our life.  Her party will be at my home church, Hope Moravian - where I was when I was a baby, a place that will always be "home" for me in so many ways.  The sentimental part of me - yeah thoughts of that just make my heart happy :)

Still trying to wrap our minds around the fact that she's almost a year old.  I'm finding out as a parent that you spend a lot of time thinking "how did we get here & where did that time go".  As little Miss shows more and more lil' personality, a fair share of tenacity and blesses with the sunshine of her laughter - we just watch in amazement.  Lately, we've found ourselves interjecting with a little "No Ella", when she's doing a mad wipe across her food tray (which means lots of little bits of food are confetti'd across the floor) or she's perching herself on the marble in front of the fireplace - looking back as soon as she begins reaching for the screen, anticipating our chorus of "No's"...this amuses her greatly.  Apes will be glad to know she enjoys my "Out on the Porch" book as much as I do.  Tons of other things/books to gravitate to, but she pulls this out with great regularity...might have to get her a copy to preserve mine :)  Point being, Ella Bella's beginning to hear some "no's" and despite what she thinks, they're not for her entertainment :)

She's learning to play a lil' rougher lately as she pummels herself towards John when he's within reach.  She can tussle pretty good with him & engages him any chance she gets.  Conversely, she's also very good at turning on a cry when she's had enough.  I'm convinced that lil' girls are born knowing the power of a cry - any man (esp. Deddy's) w.in earshot will quickly try to cease any/all crying :)  

Oh yeah, and she's standing every chance she gets.  Sometimes you just walk into the room & bam - she's just standing there not holding on to anything :)  To show off, she may bend over at the waist and then stand herself right back up.  Then she gives a lil' bounce with a cute lil' sound, like "ha, did you see that - wanna see it again?!"  And she's taking couple of steps here & there too.  Yep, sooo very on the cusp...and such a show-off with it :)

There wasn't a fun things from the weekend - we worked too hard & in the moments we weren't working, we just "sponged".  The camera  got out once & I wish I had the camera card w.me so I could share what was captured :)  Pop Pop and Nonnie made a stop-through visit Saturday afternoon.  Somehow we got on the subject of tattoos and b/c it amused me, I told John he should pick out 2 big ones for Pop Pop to put on his arms too.  Pop Pop's good nature made for some awesome arm tattoos (that last for weeks) and some nice shirtless shots w.him & John there in the kitchen :)  With Nonnie standing beside the shirtless boys holding Ella (the girls kept their shirts on) - it was some motley crew pics for sure!  

Speaking of John, he's had a little bit of a week thus far.  Monday morning found he & Seth at the dr.  Overnight Sunday, he was struggling to breathe, had that stridor breathing and seal-like cough, was very upset - so we quickly gave him a breathing treatment afraid it could be an asthma attack.  Between his struggle to breathe & getting more & more upset (all this was middle of the night), it was a somewhat stressful time.  Once he finished the breathing treatment & calmed down - well, despite the wild eyed shakiness that the albuterol gives him - he vomitted :(  It was just a MASS of mucous.  Bless his heart and bless ours too - it was yucky!  After a trip to the dr. monday morning with Seth and some lessons in exhaling/inhaling breathing ailments and how to distinguish them, doc said it was croup.  He got a steroid treatment there & has barely shown a symptom since.  He's still picking his nose & eating boogers, but that's another issue entirely :)

Stayin' on the subject of the 1st born, I have to talk a little about John's singin' and prayin' of late.  First, that singin' - boy is all about making up his own songs these days.  He'll ask, "you know this one?", followed with some lyrics about spiderman, a bear, hitting, jumping...I really can't do any justice to how elaborate his little songs are.  And they're long as hell - haha.  Last night in the bath, after trying to sing a little "deep & wide" w.Ella I told John he could pick a song.  He went with a John Fisher original - after about minute 4, I said, "Buddy, we have to sing a little quieter & maybe it's time for a new song?!"  The length, the volume, the motions - his gravelly (for effect) singing voice - sometimes, too much of a good thing :)

And for the prayers...this makes me smile to think about :)  Last night, I paused for a moment to listen at his door as him & Seth were sayin' them.  John was giving his spiel, I mean prayer, that sounds more like an adventurous fiction narrative.  I heard mention of "Ella", "the bear", "not get her", "I'm gonna get him", "my knife/sword", "mean", "hurt her" - then Seth interjected finally - the kid can go on & on!  The preface we give John is "tell God what you're thankful for" and it used to start w.family, baby sister, grandparents, toys.  He's digressed wholly from the initial format.  The other night he was thankful for his toys and for God to not let Ella play with his toys cause she's too little and has her own toys, etc.  He never ceases to amuse us :)

What else, since this is a day early "stream of consciousness" type blog :)

Our good friend Kimberly found out earlier this week that they're having a girl.  Mariah Gail should be here sometime in February - hahaha.  Totally kidding, I don't know what they'll name her but b/c that's my girl version of "Dave", (aka horrible baby names) I've taken to calling her that till I know her real name :)  Just like Hayden may always be a little Dave-ish to us, baby Johnson may be a little Mariah for us till we know her real name.  I digress...I'm super-excited that she's having a little girl (although I was sure it was gonna be a boy) and just know she's going to be beautiful like her mama & deddy.  Ella will always feel pale next to her & I will just have to explain that b/c we're pale and lil' Mariah's parents are very olive complected - she will never be as tan.  You can see I'm focusing on the important stuff :)  Seriously, tickled for Kimberly & Matt - speaking from experience, lil' girls are such captivating, heart stealing, sweet lil' beings...and I'm barely a year in w.mine.  I know they'll be great parents & they'll be so blessed to belong to each other.

Got a smile a while ago, listening to a voicemail from Shannon, "It's a pretty, sunny day - thought of you..." (sigh).  Even though I missed her call, so nice to have that sweet message to listen to.  It's a bright sunny day here too - like the song says, "such a pretty world today" :)  Happy that it's Little Friday - looking forward to enjoying a final weekend at home before the October adventures commence.  Promising myself that I won't allow as much busyness this weekend.  The existence I plan on purveyin' will be more time spent on the floor w.the babies, enjoyin' FM's pumpkin spice coffee on the porch (purchased simply for the occasion of cooler weather on the weekend horizon), enjoyin' some adult bevs where appropriate, listenin' to some good music, opening the windows - making sure to just "be" as much as possible :)

Recent Story People alludes to above sentiment - tryin' my best to stay the latter of these...

There are your fog people & your sun people, he said. I said I wasn't sure which kind I was. He nodded. Fog'll do that to you, he said.
Happy Lil' Friday :)

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Fun things about the weekend - quintessential anniversary celebration...

Just getting here - drove straight to the beach before checking in smiles :)

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Makin' our way to our destination ~ The Sunset Inn

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After a most warm greeting & welcome, being shown to our room ~ The Smithville, blue/white decor were good selling points)

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Our porch overlooking the marsh (well, minus the hat - stole this pic off the web, ha)

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Makin' a toast after settlin' in ~ "to us, to being here..." ~ it was a quick one - we were anxious to get back to the beach :)

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The 1st glimpses of what would be an unforgettable sunset (didn't know at the time, it would be the only one we saw)

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Mr. Fisher's happy face :)

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Takin' the view (sigh)

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Enjoyin' a glorious sunset (those rays, unbelievable)

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Seein' the pier lights come on (beats pants off street lights)

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Music (one song needed, one song played...over & over) ~ savoring the moment

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Ending our day with laughter, good eats & a bottle of wine @ Roberto's in Ocean Isle

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Friday morning found us off to a slow start...

We enjoyed coffee, some breakfast & then more coffee all the while bundled up on the porch.  Yep, the cold front had certainly arrived!  We exchanged cards - lots of "awes" in that & I got my five year "wood" gift :)  A game that we've yet to learn to play - when Seth says he'd prob better watch a youtube "demonstration" vs. just reading the seemingly complicated directions...yep, we'll do that another time :)

After taking a hot shower - mostly to get feeling back in my bones, we headed out to lunch at the Inlet View at Shallotte Point.  We made sure to sit outside (ended a bet that "no one would sit outside" between 2 waitresses) and tried to enjoy the view between breezes.  The food was good, the Red Stripes were great and it was good to get back in the car where we could warm up once we were done :)

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After all that time spent outdoors we rewarded ourselves with climbing straight back into bed for the afternoon - where it was warm!  It was a great, lazy afternoon spent cuddling & enjoyin' the warmth (of each other & the heat we turned on!)  Video chatted with the babies & that was awesome...a good hold over for missing those faces and lil' voices.

Gettin' ready for our dinner at the Parson's Table in Little River

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Enjoyin' a beyond wonderful dinner w.red wine, fried green tomatoes w.goat cheese (for appetizer), salad, prime rib (for Seth), ahi tuna (for me) and lots of plate sharing :)  Other than some stragglers @ the bar - we shut the place down...

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Friday was a good night's (truth be told, better than the 1st) sleep and Saturday was another nice morning of breakfast, coffee and moseying around the room/porch.

After breakfast we decided to get ready to get out & do some piddlin' down in Calabash.  We so enjoyed moseying through all the lil' shops there...

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We rewarded our piddlin' w. the best meal of the weekend.  Not best b/c of the fine dining, the wine list or the atmosphere.  It was best b/c it was a dive, we got sat in the back room all by ourselves, the eats were yummy, the beer was ice cold (seemed to keep coming) and the conversation and laughter were just us being as us as we could be (deep sigh) ~ here's Tony's...our lunch destination in all it's "glory" :)

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Post lunch, we enjoyed a walk down to the waterfront in Calabash...

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The following are mid-day, drinkin’ people kinda poses…

Example one – me feelin’ a need to wrap myself around a pole, possibly thinking (a) I’m bein’ cute or (b) that I can pull it over...

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Example two – Seth giving same pole a “lean to” pose, possibly thinking (a) I’m bein’ cute or (b) I can hold this thing up should it start to fall…as with 1st example, it appeared to make us happy :)

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Despite our silliness, we were thinking of the babies…nice to have these “reminders”

John’s

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Ella’s

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After lunch & moseying, headed by the grocery store JUST to get beer & pee (man, I love a simple trip)...aiming to make our way to the beach as the sky brightened just a smidge :)

Cold *ss beach all to ourselves (minus those 500 people up on the pier – maybe they know something we don’t)

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Here's the big kid that "has to go swimming" - there he goes...

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post-swim delirium :)
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thankfully, for some of us - tunes and cooler proximity were plenty satisfying...

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here me are, cold beer on a cold day – at least my towel stayed dry – ha

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final big people meal out…a good one to end things on – back to Calabash for Grapevine

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So, there it is - a lil' overview/timeline of our 5th anniversary trip.  Having the opportunity to be removed from all of our familiar - back to what it all started as, just Seth & Traci...um, just sorta beyond awesome.

Not going to hash through all the emotions in that b/c some things are just for us to know and carry a little more hitch in our giddy up for knowing.  This is mostly just "for the book" :)

So thankful for all that's happened in the small span of 5 years.  Our family's grown - our hearts right along with it.  Our love for each other - greater, deeper, stronger.  Our amusement with one another - still unmatched :)

Sums it up so nicely...

The little things? The little moments? They aren't little. - Jon Kabat-Zinn

Monday, September 12, 2011

Awakening...

In those days,
we finally chose to walk like giants
& hold the world in arms grown strong with love
& there may be many things we forget in the days to come,
but this will not be one of them.

Reflecting on the above Story People, I'd have to say this was a weekend spent "walking like giants."  Seizing the day, soakin' it up and taking time to just be.  We were the usual family of four, continuing to grow our loving arms and trying to stay within each other's reach most of the waking time.

Knowing that we'll be away from those thundering beats of our heart by week's end, I think we laughed a little harder, hugged a little tighter and basked moreso in all their sunshine.  

From playin' along with all of John's adventures that range from sharks in the bathtub to dragons in mama's kitchen - we so enjoy being on this adventurous, humorous, joy-filled and imaginative ride of all things lil' boy.  Then there's lil' miss, sweet Ella Bella, giving us her charming lil' grin or erupting in that lil' laugh of hers...a heart be still we're only scratching the surface of.  We are so proud and enamored with those babies.  I hope that our smiles of joy, our matching laughter and our beaming pride are things they will always carry with them.  I hope the love they're given and that they give in return will help them "walk like giants" in this world.  

We got the camera out exactly once this weekend.  Sunday night supper on the back deck.  Adding to the list of things that won't be forgotten...

"Peace" ~ felt in taking the view from the kitchen window, knowing that is my family - my husband, my children...all my heart's desires right there together (sigh)

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Simple joy ~ seen best through a child's eye...the day my children stop gravitating under tables for adventures is one that I hope is far far away.  Add to that - further hope that they will always look at each other the way they do now...with honest adoration and love (deep sigh)

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No matter where we may live or how many days the sun doesn't shine, I will never lose the beautiful picture of how the setting sun casts the warmest hue of gold across our back porch.  Seeing my babies cast in that glow of a fading day, their warmth - the loving way I can't help but see them (deeper sigh)

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Being here to hold the yesterdays, enjoy todays, hope for tomorrow - all the while thanking God for the moments (deepest sigh)

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Yesterday marked the anniversary of such a tragic day in our nation's history.  Just as seemingly every 9/11 since that fateful day - the sun was shining bright, the sky was a brilliant blue.  As with so many tragedies that befall our lives - be them personal, national or worlds away...they should all serve an important reminder of the gift of today.  

Designed this earlier using a Max Lucado quote - serves as a reminder of the above.  Not only is each day a gift, but it's a blank slate & we choose what we fill it with...


Committing to this for myself, for Seth, for those babies and in appreciation of all that God continues to bless our lives with.  Reminded every day he really loves me "this much" - insert stretched out arms :)

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Take a lil' time Thursday...

and just wringin' out - the "sponge" is gettin' full this week...

Came across a new song that has me feeling compelled, humbled & touched (sigh).  

Read a Bible verse today that did the same (deeper sigh).

Paul wrote:  I planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the growth.  I Corinthians 3:6

Love Is All I Am ~ enjoy...

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Fun things about the weekend...something like a labor day :)

Our weekend was spent stay-cating instead of vacating.  That said, there was a little work, a little play & a whole lotta us time in between.  So extraordinarily ordinary, just the way we like it.  

The yard's cut, the garage is neatened, the house is mostly clean, Mt. Laundry's been temporarily defeated, Cat in the Hat's been watched (at least twice), food's been cooked for the week, the porch finally got sat on, the fridge got stocked, there was a lil' sleepin' late and napping for everyone...

A highlight of the weekend was the WACDD kick-start Seth & I took Friday afternoon - skipping outta work about 2.  It involved a table outside @ an ol' stompin' ground, some cold seasonal beerz, some awesome food, some people watching, some time spent just bein' Seth & Traci.  The conversation, the laughs, the moments to just be...a different kind, but much needed "sigh."  Being those people drinkin' in the middle of the day like we had nowhere to be - so good for our souls :)   

Some of the extraordinarily ordinary fun things...


This girl ~ growing too fast...trying to see the world through her discovering lil' eyes

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Deddy being his spontaneous (ha) self takin' the fam for Goodberry's :)

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Happy face #1


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Happy face #2

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A lil' Sunday paper readin'

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Caroline Kennedy quote in the parade ~ filed under, "values I wish to instill in my own children"

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Deddy & his Sunday paper...see, the porch did get sat on :)


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A lil' Candyland

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The "craft beast" gettin' restless :)

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With thoughts of a lil' doodles 1st bday on the mind lately - steered the beast in the pink direction

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Satiating the beast ~ marinating in Ella's loveliness (sigh)

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Celebratin' 10 mos. (more sighing)

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Softening butter (w.some squeeze real hard help from John) for a lil' cookie time w.the 1st born :)
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Mama's lil' roll'em up helper ("my hands are yucky!!")

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One of two favorite "under" places to play...under-foot and under the table :)

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Lettin' the fine folks at Wendy's take a meal this weekend - no guilt at all about the food scattered about on the floor...just so long as we didn't have to clean it up :)

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Family grocery store trips ~ who's steering this thing!?

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Pausin' (not from eatin') to watch another child misbehave ~ glad it stuns them so much - haha

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These two...

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a lil' more in love each day (sigh)

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after supper pony rides :)

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John told me, "Mama, you can ride the horsey too" ....hahahahahahahaha (us doubling over with inappropriate laughter at that)

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Adhering to this best we can...
Blessings - Remember to count them
each and everyday.
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Brings me to a church sign passed on the way to get ice cream.  "You want to get rich quick - count your blessings."

Amen...have a blessed week :)
It is not length of life, but depth of life. ~Emerson