All About Baby...week 12

Infusing a lil' guilt, my Mama asked me the other day if Baby Fish was going to get their own website. I laughed (was she serious?!) - when would I manage that? Oh yeah, in that 25th or 26th hour of my day! I told her, "No, don't think so!" Since I finally got page one done on my 2nd pregnancy scrapbook last night, the guilt started to creep in about Baby Fish not getting his/her own website. Therefore, I've since decided, they will get their own "All About Baby" posts from time to time over the next months and that should set the world right again, haha :) At this stage these All About Baby posts will be a lot about mama being pregnant since Baby Fish isn't really carrying such a large presence just yet.

I've finally started to feel better in the last week or so - a lot better, actually (heavens part, halelujahs ring out)! Feeling very thankful for that & I know my family is too. "What's that, Mama's actually fixing supper & trying to plan meals - thrilling :)."

Baby Fish had their 2nd Dr.'s Appt. on Tuesday. We were tickled b/c we were SUPPOSED to hear the lil' heartbeat. We were quickly defeated w.some growing concern when Dr. Flanagan failed to hear anything but my whopping heartbeat w.the lil' doppler. She asked the nurse to bring in the old ultrasound machine. She said they have a "portable" one to drag from room to room. So, more goop & she went searching. And there Baby Fish was and there that lil' heart was, pounding away....DEEP SIGH!! Seeing another picture so soon was kinda amazing - Baby Fish looked just like a real baby - with limbs, features, etc. A lil' sad we didn't get any sound effects, but thankful to get another peek so soon. She said everything looked great and we're thankful for that.

Before trying to find the heartbeat & taking a peek we spent quite some time talking w.Dr. Flanagan (she was the rock star who delivered John). She went over a lot of standard pregnancy stuff, but Seth also asked her some questions about what to expect this time w.delivery & options. She said they'll do a late ultrasound w.Baby Fish (I forget at what week) to see how big he/she is. If they're looking to be on track w.John or bigger we may plan to induce on/before my due date. Being that there was such bad tearing w.John, she also said I could "elect" to have a c-section. After pretty much hashing out that I've seen the worst w.that & you can't get worse than the worst, I feel pretty comfortable that if things stay on track, I will likely pass on the elective c-section. However, it will be exciting to think we get a "bonus" ultrasound that late in the game. This lil' booger's already set to have double the pics John had made :)

Sweet moment last night when Seth was at Bible study. John & I are on the living room floor watching his "animoooos" movie (Ice Age 3). I was laying back on his bean bag and asked him, "Buddy, do you know what Mama has in her belly?" He then proceeds to lift up my shirt & take a peek. I laughed & said, "There's a baby in there!" He then stuck his finger in my belly button (I guess thinking that was how to get to the baby) & giggled. I repeated myself a couple of times & he just smiled & put both hands on my belly, trying to push down. I said, "Be easy - the baby's too little for all that right now. When it gets bigger it will come out and you can play with it!" John then leaned over (prepare yourself - an "awe" moment coming up) and pressed his cheek to my belly & said, "Heyyy Babyyyy" in his sweet lil' voice. Oh, be still my heart...such a heartwarming moment :)

Talked to Seth some yesterday about Baby Fish's official soundtrack (didn't know babies needed official soundtracks, did ya?!). Well John's was most certainly Jason Falkner's "Bedtime w.The Beatles" album. From "Across the Universe" to "In My Life", I listened to this CD many times over before John was born and in his earliest days, I heard it time & time again as I would rock John to sleep or enjoy those quiet moments of trying to shut my own eyes while it peacefully played through the baby monitor. The familiar chords in those songs, especially those versions of them will forever put that "hot feeling" in my eyes right before the tears well up. It evokes a heart-warming ache for the lil' baby he was.

Well, thank goodness Mr. Falkner did a follow up album b/c I can not have my children sharing soundtracks & explained as much to Seth :). Bedtime w.the Beatles 2 will certainly be the 1st lullabies this sweet baby will have his/her sweet dreams to. Early favorites are definitely "Lucy in the Sky...", "Hey Jude" and "Here Comes the Sun", especially the latter. I've been listening to this while typing this post & I have to say it gives me those same warm flutters as the 1st one did while anticipating and dreaming of John.

Music's pretty sacred to me and while it may seem silly, I want my children to have songs to carry with them through their lives knowing they were "their songs" in their Mama's heart. Maybe one day when I'm gone, they'll get the same warm feeling I do as they recall hearing from me time & time again, "that song makes me think of you - it played over & over when (insert time, event, age, etc.)"

Sorry for the music tangent :) Baby Fish's next appt. is May 4th w.Dr. Martin - she's the one who got labor started w.John (lots of gushing water ring any bells?!). In looking at the calendar, I guess the next appt. will be the 1st week of June and that will be the BIG visit where we get to find out if we should be shopping blue or pink. I'm a lil' anxious to know, but I know in my heart I will be thrilled & surprised either way.

Please keep our growing family in your prayers, especially this littlest one. Pray that he/she will to continue to grow & develop. We are so thankful to be awaiting another one of God's miracles & it's still hard to believe we've got this addition to look forward to...

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right